jaysaint Getting it all down on paper…

I’d say I have 12 hours before I need to get to bed. And then I’m out of town until Thursday night. Friday morning my Mom and Jerry hit town, and they’ll be here until the following Tuesday.

It’s all good stuff, so I’m not too tense. But I have that rollercoaster feeling, the one where the cars are just about to the top of a big hill.

It’s all metaphorical to me, as I don’t ride rollercoasters. But I’ve watched rollercoasters.

There is a lot I should do today:
1. Get ahead on work, as I won’t have a lot of time for it this coming week.
2. Get the apartment in order for my folks’ visit.
3. Go to the market so they I have groceries for above visit.
4. Pack

So far what I’m doing is burning through my TiVo queue. I’ve gone through three episodes of The Dog Whisperer and now I’m going to move on to The Soup.

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On the Nighstand: The Stepford Wives by Ira Levin
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I just can’t do it. And I can do a lot. But I can’t do this.

Currently on the nightstand: The Stepford Wives

Don’t you think that should be an entry field on LJ? I’d like to replace the mood tag with that. I figure my post probably adequately conveys my mood.

I hired my first team member today. Her name is Kara and she’s an intern for the Home editor right now. She’s been at Redbook as an intern for two semesters now.

I picked her up for my entry-level position. I need a senior editor too, but wanted to fill this spot first.

And it was so much fun to make her the offer, I wish I got to do that every day.

I told her the salary I was offering and she had a sort of blank look on her face and said, “I’m surprised.” And I said, “Suprised good or surprised bad?” And she said, “Good! I expected about $10,000 less than that!” So cute. When she was leaving my office she said, “I promise I am going to make you proud.” It was a delightful experience all the way around. And I felt really good when she said, “I feel like all the hard work has paid off.” Because I love hard workers over flashy workers and it’s great to help one win.

http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/tryFaceRecognition.php?s=1&u=g0&lang=EN

Totally inaccurate, but fun.

Two of my four top matches were Asian.

Damon’s second match was Annette Benning.

If you can read this, it means you’re in the custom Friends group that I’ve whittled down. I’ve been feeling like I want to write about trying to have a baby. But my general journal is open to too many people, and I’m just not ready to telegraph all this just yet.

So hello to my Friends who either already know, are moms themselves, are engaging enough to merit being on any list and I trust not to transmit this information. You’re a really small group, actually.

And if anyone thinks this stuff is TMI, I won’t be at all offended if you ask me to take you off the distro.

The background is that Damon and I tossed out the birth control as soon as we got married last July. It’s quick, but I don’t have any intention of being pregnant and pushing 40. It’s not an unreasonable thing to do, but it’s definitely not for me.

So for a few months we just lived our lives without worrying about it, just trying to get used to this new freedom after so many years of vigilance and caution. In late fall I read “Taking Control of Your Fertility” and we got more targeted in our efforts. After just two months I got a new job and we took a two-month hiatus while I waited for my new insurance to kick in. I had nightmare visions of some bureaucrat in a basement calling my pregnancy a pre-existing condition and refusing me coverage. So now we’re back on track. I’m faithfully taking my basal temp. every morning and keep an eye on all things ovulatory in general.

So today I went for my annual with a new doctor. Much to my relief I liked her a lot. She uses cotton gowns instead of paper.

The visit was an education, as I learned that my uterus is tipped. I got a kick out of listening to her try to delicately suggest that “you might want to be… on your… tummy” as that will make my chances of conceiving much better.

She also said to go only another three months of trying before calling her so we could figure something out. I’m glad she’s so proactive, that’s good. But it’s also a little scary to think that fertility testing could be that close.

The last interesting bit was her telling me that as soon as I get a positive pregnancy test I should stop taking my daily multivitamin because a) it will have too much vitamin A and b) that they make pregnant women feel really sick. Fascinating.